Hey guys, Here to post about today...
Today was a bad day. The most sucks day.. Hai, Dad went out of operation room today. And the operation was succesful... Hmm, This is a good news. But still a bad day. Today was the day that ruin my mood.. Hai..
Putting on a fake smile everyday, I hate this world.
Alright, I will start here le... Today was a fucking bad day.. The most bad day i have. It ruin my mood man... Hai..
Quarreled with my brother just now.. I feel that our relationship are not getting close le. So no point yeah. I have been quarreling with him can say is everyday le.. When ever we saw each other will quarrel. Aiya, Don't know what's the problem with him la.. Don't know izzit h don't lie me or what.. Don't like me don't talk to me la..
He change alot man. No point talking to him wasting my saliva.. He don't talk reason. So no point talking reason with him. Must shout. He think he hero shout shout. He can shout i also can...
Hai, I just have a feeling that i'm no longer belongs to this houses.. If things still carry on like this. Then if time reaches. I will leave bah.. Maybe i and this family need times to chill. Needs time to cool down...
Aiya, I don't care much la. He still don't understand me la.. He still don't what kind of person i am, He don't know my character, My Attitude. Being my brother for so long still don't understand hai, Sad case...
Think i got to find a job le.. Maybe gonna work and study at the same time.. Maybe stuying private lor.. So now, Just treat it giveing myself a chacne to try back my previous course (Machine Building Technology).. Just give it a try but... If still can't make it then study private lor... Because, That's means i have really no interest in that course anymore.
But, My brother is like forcing myself to take something that i don't like.. Why he go try studying a course that he have totally no interest in it. GO TRY LOR!!!!
Don't force me to do something that i don't like. It has no happiness.
And he said that he don't want to care me anymore.. Yeah very good. Because, The way he teach me and care me are in the wrong way.. The way that i don't like, I don't i won't listen. If he not happy don't teach.. Because this is my attitude... Already said, I have change alot.. I'm no longer the lastime me.. Because i have beared with him for so long for his shouting. Yeah...
And please, Don't always use people that will side you want and go complain to them. Don't be a complain king please.. This is our family. I don't like people that KPO to come in. Thanks...
The more you ask other people to teach me. The more i won't listen.. Like your friend that spam my blog with you.. Alright..
I Hate Them!!
And yeah, Sometime, My brother talk does'nt think twice.. Guys, You know what he say to me just know?? He said i'm not a fillial child. The world said this, Do hurt me alot. Haiiii..
I think we better don't talk. You can already say things till like this. Then no point.. The more we talk, The more we will quarrel.. Okay...
I'm really gonna gone crazy. Just leave me alone...
If you really wanan chase me out of the house just chase. But i tell you, You have no right..
Maybe he think he care for me. But the way he teach me, Scolded me, Hurts me.. I can't feel any caring from him. And i have my reason for going out everydays. Because i can't stand your nagging anymore.. I will gone crazy seriouse.. I hate nagging the most. If you wanna nag, I rather you go temple and read the chant.. Please don't nag and shout at me. I don't like.
Saw my mum cried just. Because of the problem between me and my brother.. See already my heart was really pain. I did not said i don't wanna study. But my bro change the story. That why mum cried.. And yeah, I will only respect people that are worth to respect.. That respect. Don't shout at me all the time..
And i just realise something. Die is more better. Don't know anything. Just be a wondering ghost wondered around with freedoms...
Haiiii :(
I Hate This Fucking world, I Hate Everyone, Hope i will leave this world...
Die are so wonderful, It just sleeping and no longer belongs to this world, Have no sadnss, Stress and alot od things..
Being alive was also not a good choice..
Maybe living this house and giving each time to cool is better...
In this world have lots and lots of sadness.. Fuck it!!!
And forcing don't give any happiness..
Alright, I will just end here...
Take Care everybody...
Bye..
Alex Lee (猴子LaoGao) 85...